Monday, December 28, 2009

What do Sissies Want?

Continued from "Down the Rabbit Hole"


So does it start this way for all sissies? I have no way of knowing. But for me it was a slow decent, one little step after another. Panties led to stockings, stockings to heels, and before long I was shaving and wearing makeup. It's all part of the transformation, the descent into full submissive sissydom.

Being a sissy is all about feeling feminine. The touch of silk on smooth shaven skin, the look of shapely calves extending from high heeled sandals, stocking tops peeking from under a too short skirt -- such femininity is intoxicating!

But being a sissy isn't only about looking the part, it's about feeling the part too. Every time I dress, I want to feel as much like a woman as I can, and that lone desire is what drives me deeper and deeper still into the web of sissified lust.

While it was orginally a thrill to drive in traffic wearing a mini and heels, it was the promise of pure feminine bliss that drove me to complete the illusion. Wearing panties and stockings under my work clothes went from wildly erotic to woefully inadequate in a number of months, if not weeks. Once I had tasted the devine pleasure of complete transformation, I could not again settle for some mere half-step.

I did, of course, continue to wear panties and stockings every day, but I found it almost unbearable to have to wait so long between business trips. Aside from Sami's occasional road trip, it was only when away and in the privacy of a hotel room that I was able to be my sissy self. I can't overstate how preoccupied I was with planning my next trip, or how nervously anxious I became when the time grew near.

Thankfully, my company did require a significant amount of travel, and I volunteered for every trip possible. I didn't care where, and every trip was the same. I would waste no time once in my hotel room, to strip of my male uglies and reveal the satin sissy underneath. I would sometimes shower and shave, sometimes not, depending on how clean and smooth I already was. But one thing was certain, I would spend every evening, my entire trip, completely made up and dressed like a hot sexy slut!



But even those wonderful nights dressed in satin and lace, decked out in heels and skirt were soon not enough. Once again, I needed more. So, with styled hair and slutty makeup, I started to venture outside of my hotel room each time while away. My first excursions were nothing more than a walk in the hallway, or occasionally a jaunt down the elevator. I can't even express the thrill it gave me to be out in "public" as a woman.

Before long, I extended my little outings to include walking to my car, and even brief drives. I still remember the feeling of that first time I ever walked outside. The cool breeze chilling my stocking covered thighs as it blew up under my short skirt, the entire experience enhanced so by the sound of my heels clicking on the hard pavement, it was all I could do to keep from cumming on the spot and soaking my lace bikini panties.

But being the sissy that I am, as time went on, and my desire to feel feminine grew, it eventually came to a point where mere dressing up and prancing around just wasn't enough. My fantasies took me to places I had never before dreamed of, and in a way that makes total sense now, at some point I started to dream of cock. After all, what completes the feminine illusion more? Guys don't pleasure cock, but woman do, and as a sissy who desperately wanted to feel like a woman, I increasingly became aware of my desire to experience sex like a woman, and stroked my little clitty to many fantastic orgasms while dreaming of hard cock.

The rabbit hole took another deep plunge at this point, and my fantasies soon led to my purchase of several latex cocks. I started sucking them at first and found that I became very aroused just by placing my lips around the large bulbous head. I was mesmerized by the sight of my painted nails wrapped around the simulated man flesh and thrilled by seeing my crimson red lipstick prints on the hard shaft.

Of course, I didn't stop with merely sucking these symbols of raw maleness. No, my cocksucking ways soon led to me raping my own ass with dildoes of ever-increasing size. I would dawn my slutiest outfits and bounce up and down on a hard latex cock until my little sissy clitty would squirt my creamy load all over everything.


My favorite activity was to put my high-heeled feet in the air and fuck my sissy pussy with the biggest plastic cock I could find, while stuffing my throat with another. I would instantly become so aroused by the vulnerable feeling of lying on my back with my legs in the air. Looking up at my bouncing heels, I would pound my sissy ass-pussy until my elevated clit would start shooting streams of hot, milky sissy cum into my hungry slut mouth.

Yes, I spent many nights alone in hotel rooms across the U.S., dressed like a complete fucking slut, with a plastic cock in my mouth and another filling my sissy ass.

Each of those nights would end with me crying for my dream intruder to fuck me harder, to make me his bitch, and each make-believe fuck would end with me madly gobbling all of my hot sticky cum I could get.

As you may have guessed, this isn't where it ended. I would soon no longer spend my every feminine experience alone, but then that is another story . . .

Kisses


18 comments:

  1. Wonderful post. Haven't ventured that far down the rabbit hole yet. I've explored plugs and only feminine clothing under masculine clothing. We'll see what the new year brings! Wishing you a happy 2010.

    -ch

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  2. Thank you so much for this post. The rabbit hole is the prefect term for it. As strange as it is it all flows naturally like gravity. As much as i fight the cravings how can i fight something that is so totally logical? The fact that society brands it as freakish only seems to enhance the truth of it. Why else would i do this if i didn't NEED to do it?

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  3. Hi Baby,
    MMmm, you are just getting started on your sissy journey. Just wait until you start sucking and fucking real men. You will be ruined for straight sex.

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  4. I've been down this path too. I'm not sure where it ends, but I've both amazingly wonderful experiences and completely humiliating and degrading ones. I know its the later that I think of the most . .

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  5. What an insightful post. I can totally empathise with the small steps you took on a longer journey. Ten years ago I was content to dress up and have the occasional feminised trip. Nowadays, well.... suffice to say that I have surprised myself sometime.

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  6. Boobie Dear,
    There's no doubt about what we need, and as you said, it is all so logical. I found out long ago that it didn't make any sense to resist. It just wastes time, because the outcome is always the same . . .

    Kisses,
    crissi

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  7. Lizabeth Honey,
    You know I luv you dear. We are such kindred spirits. Believe me, doll, my blog may just be getting started, but my journey is well underway. Ruined for straight sex? I guess there's nothing straight about it, but I must say, that while I do so luv cock, I'm still quite fond of pussy too, especially when it's dripping with yummy cummy . . .

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  8. Fiona and you other gurls,
    All I can say is that it appears we're all on the same path - perhaps at different places, but in the end the destination is the same . . .

    Kisses my darlings,
    crissi

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  9. with the exception of the business trips (changed to extended lunch times) i could almost copy and paste this post into my own blog!!!

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  10. so true as I read your blog I am getting my hole nice and clean for the next black 10 inch T/S Mistresses cock.

    I dress up at home putting on everything on underneath my street clothes and then when I get to their place I am ready to submit to cock.

    I'll try to get some pics for you.

    ttyl, sissy chrissy

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  11. do you ever get sent to CT?

    T

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  12. T, I've not been to CT. Boston is the closest . . .

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  13. Oh Sissy Crissi your blog is making me so hot and naughty. I also spend lots of time as a sissy fag when I am in hotels. Packing my dildos, panties, bras, stockings and garter belts before I go impresses upon me how much of a gay sissy I am becoming. I spend hours in my hotel room prancing around, spreading my sissy pussy, looking at myself in the mirror as I suck on a dildo and stick another one in my sissy pussy. It makes me so hot to talk out loud while I am doing this, saying humiliating things to myself that only make me hotter! Like this:

    "What a gay sissy faggot you are to dress up in your wife's panties and bras while you suck cock. You watch porn with nubile girls in it and you spend your time wishing that you were the girl with her mouth full of cock rather than the man getting his cock sucked. What kind of cuntboy fag steals his wife's panties and bras, wears them, and sucks cock in them because knowing that you are a cocksucker in your wife's things makes you feel even sissier!"

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  14. sissycriss i am *so* glad i found your blog! You make so much sense to this gurl and you capture that feeling of shameful addiction so well than you for sharing!!

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  15. I'm glad you found my blog too Tommi. I took a look at your new blog too -- nice start. At least this all gives us a chance to share our "shameful addiction" with others who really understand.

    Kisses,
    crissi

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  16. I wish I could go down the rabbit hole along with you.

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